By
in
I often feel like I do not fit into this reality.
I feel too much.
I see too much.
I know too much.
In general I am just too much.
In attempts to make sense of the trauma I have experience I find myself seeking truth. The real reason for everything that has happened to me. The real reason why we are here on Earth.
It has brought me down some pretty fascinating rabbit holes.
Causing myself to spiral between spiritual awakening and simply being human.
I will dive deep into my psyche and soul. Heal deep wounds. Then emerge anew.
I have noticed that the past few years the cycles of evolving and resting have been at a quicker rate.
I am not the same person I was 10 years ago, 5 years ago, 1 year ago, 3 months ago. Hell, I am not even the same as I was just a week ago.
Not many friends and family understand my incessant need to heal and grow.
The constant seeking.
The constant starting and stopping.
The constant changing.
I promise that it is not an attempt to avoid, depress or circumvent life. I am simply moving from victim through being a survivor to finally thriving mindfully. When you have been through what I have been through and have had the veil pulled away on the lies I told myself to survive, then you would understand why I am aligning the correct tools to heal the root cause of it all. Why I cannot just simply live the life we are all conditioned to live.
I crave more.
I desire more.
I need more.
Allowing me to live and experience life fully at all my levels.
I am here for transcending karma.
I am here for love.
I am here for remembering who I am.
